Ridhwan Razali's ♥

Family is everything. Be it perfect, or broken. Everyone is brought up differently. Some might stray away from the right path, and some might have the perfect journey towards their dreams. It all depends on the person itself, whether they want to work for it or just laid back and watch as the world goes pass them.

As you look around you, you see families everywhere. Laughing amongst themselves, having fun. Taking pictures as a family, they look so happy. You'll think, they are such a perfect family. But wait, just because they look like a perfect family doesn't mean they are a perfect family. Behind those smiles and laughters, there can be problems. Or maybe fighting or arguing amongst themselves. You won't know it. Doesn't mean they look perfect, they don't have any problems. Maybe financial problems, or disagreements with parents. Or small arguments with the siblings. You can never see all these things. Like many people always say, "Don't judge it's book by it's cover."

Broken family is another thing. Like maybe divorced parents, or the children goes astray as parents are too busy with their work. Or they got no parents at all. Things like that. But doesn't mean they got broken family, they are categorised as bad people. Because when you really get to know them, they're actually very nice people. It's just that they are lacked of love by their parents, family that make them look like what they look like now. Even if they drink, or smoke, have a tattoo, lots of piercing, it still doesn't give people the rights to judge them.

To summarise everything, nobody's perfect. Not even me, nor you. You may have a perfect family, or a broken family, but even everyone will suffer the same fate. The rich can be poor, and the poor will be rich. Those perfect famiy can break any moment, and those broken ones can just get a perfect family in the future. So appreciate the things and the people around you. You can never know they might just disappear one day. :)

Life is getting better each day, and im loving it :) i quit the TCC job, a job that i havent even try out yet. Hahaha! But im too lazy to go =P i shall just stick to ben&jerry eventhough i HATE the company. Lols. (fuck you guys cos wanna cut cost!) anyway, boyf quit the TCC job as well. A job that he only works for 2days. Lols. But im happy and excited for him, cos he found another job. Thanks to Yue Xing for getting him that job! ^^ appreciate it babe ♥

Was supposed to watch Crazy, Stupid, Love today but we forgot to book and in the end there's no more seats. Lols. So we push the plan to tmr instead :) hopefully everything would go as planned ^^ cant wait for tmr! Long day ahead~

Work. Gg out wit lovelies, Ridhwan, Nabila, Fadil ♥ nights everyone!

Omg. This is soo uber cool. Posting a post through my phone. Hahaha!!! Okay, jakunn muchh~ HAHAHA!!

Anyway, im getting ready to go in Singapore later. I got work at 6pm later, but its my TCC job. And im not sure if i wanna go or not. I dont feel like working there =P padehal i never start before. Hahaha! Hmmmm, i shall see how.

And last Wednesday i went to raya outing wit my 5Awesome1 ! ♥ and looking at the pics posted in fb by them really makes me miss them already! When i was looking at those pic again, i miss all the fun and laughter we had on that day. Eventhough the ending was...... Hahaha. Anyway, I miss you guys already, 5Awesome1 ♥

Since the last time I didn't get to update my blog properly, I shall use this small free time of mine to update my blog :)

Two more days left to fast, and here comes Raya. (:

surprisingly, this year I don't have any new clothes. But it didn't bother me that much, cos partly was my fault too. I didn't had enough time to find for new clothes :( so its okay, I tried all my past years clothes and I can still fit. So that means I'll be using them again this year, which I really don't mind :)

The last time I updated my blog, I think I talked about working at BBQ Chicken as my second part-time job, but I quit that already. Currently still working at B&J, but I applied at TCC as service crew and I'm starting on the 3rd Sept, and boyf working there too. Yay! ♥

Things has been great in my life. Regarding my family, friends, cousins and boyfriend too ♥

I know I used to have lots of problems last time, but its getting better now. And I'm really happy. But the only sad thing pulling me down is that I might not get to move back to my Singapore house. Yes, I might be moving house. Again. Haishh. Tired :(

I'm happy with my life now, and the people around me. Yay! ♥

Life has been awesome to me. Like seriously. I'm better now, better than last time. I know last time I used to complain about my life a lot. Yea, my life has been shitty last time. But hey, it's getting better. Really. And I'm loving it ♥

These people made my life happier ♥
We're closer now, the bond between us is stronger. And I love them to bits!

P.S
I wanted to post a longer one but I need go sleep. Got work later, and I'm not asleep yet! Lols.

Its been a long time since I last updated my blog. And yea, im updating it right now cos I just need to clear my mind. Its the only place where I could actually free my mind. If you readers wanna judge me, go ahead. I dont give a damn. This is my blog anyway, dont like it ? Then just leave.

As you know, I have a job. But recently I took another job. And yes, if you are slow, I got two jobs now. As a scoopy, and also a waitress. My second job is at Clarke Quay, BBQ Chicken. The pay wasnt as good as what I earned at Ben&Jerry, but I dont really mind. But whats bothering me right now?

Its about me having two jobs. Somehow I just cant do it. I thought I could, but Im wrong. Im tired of doing this, having two jobs. And thinking about the reason why am I doing this in the first place. Sigh. I feel that... Im too young to carry such a burden like this. Its stressing me out. And trust me, it isnt good for me. I cant concentrate at work. I havent even work 1month at BBQ Chicken and I've already feel like giving up. Quit working. I dont wanna paitao them again, I feel so bad for doing like that to them. But I cant take it anymore.

I need someone badly )': someone who could hear me out, and guide me through this obstacles that im facing. I need boyf to be here by my side always, and never leave me. I need girlfs to listen to my problems.. But who?? sigh. )':

Like this bird up here, I wanna be free. I feel like as if I'm a bird, stuck in a cage. Freedom, is what I want. I can't stand feeling like a prisoner, in my own house. Like as if this is just a huge cell, which I can never escape. I can only be free, when SHE lets me be free. Don't ask me when, I do not know myself. I don't know why, sometimes I feel like as if someone's pulling me back from having fun. To live my teenage years. I don't feel like as if my teenage years are well spent. I'm always trapped, problems keep piling up, and I never had the chance to enjoy myself, fully.

I feel like I'm treated like a small girl, and I'm sick of it ! For your information guys, I'm already a grown up. I'm not your little girl anymore, it's time for you to let me go and start trusting me! Maybe if you did long time ago, I wouldn't have come this far. I wouldn't be such a rebel like this. But don't blame, it's not my fault for turning like this. You made me who I am today.